I think I am back!!

Guys you would not believe how much stuff I had in my handbag that those idiots stole from me.My whole life it seems.My camera,first of all.I have to go get another one otherwise I will not be able to post pics of the new house.BTW I decided to stay right here.I just upgraded the security as in 8 rows of electrical fencing all around the perimeter,then beams on the inside connected to an alarm system which connects to an armed response team who will then come and shoot intruders,I think.The problem is we are not used to this and we keep activating the alarm by mistake and then the armed response calls us and we then have to give the correct password that everything is still ok.This usually happens in the middle of the night when one of the kids go to the toilet so when they call I am half asleep and they don't believe me when I say all ok."Are you sure you are ok Ma'am?? You must give us the wrong password if you are being attacked.To which I say really I am ok I am just still asleep.

anyway back to stuff in my handbag.I have this swing chair in my garden.With the move I put all screws and bolts in my handbag.The curly springy screw for my swing chair was in my bag.My chair does not swing anymore.My hammock does not hang anymore,also missing curly screw.My library card is gone.The last time I requested a new one was because my office burnt down and now I have to say I was held up by 6 guys with 6 guns.Would you believe me???

Onto trauma counselling.First thing she says is "you must not hate all blacks".For goodness sakes it did not even occur to me to do that.If I had been attacked by white guys would I hate all white guys?so the same applies here
then she says"do not feel guilty" another thing that did not occur to me.A person can't go to the bank,take out money without being attacked?Seriously I need to feel guilty because I did that?
What I have been doing is taking it personally.I have convinced myself that the painter I fired put a curse on me.I need to work on that thought process because THAT is wrong!

My baby girl is the brave one in all of this.She made the decision that we would stay in the house but that we should have a security system.I am so very very proud of my brave little girl.

Another bit of advice is that you need to talk about it all the time.I don't agree because all it does is make me think of all the bad things that could have happened instead.I am so very grateful that they were professional thirves who took the money and left.No one was beaten up or raped or killed.Maybe I have a bit of the Stockholm syndrome but that's ok.This was a warning and we will be more careful in the future.

South Africa is one of the most violent countries in the world and I got through 23 years of living in this country without being a victim of even petty crime.I love this country and I love the people and I will be damned if I am going to let 6 misguided thugs run me out of here.So,I am here to stay and I will make sure my family is safe.Me and my tiny family of 3!!!!

Last but not least,I hadn't cried at all until I read all the wonderful messages you guys left for me.Thank you so much! I appreciate every single one of the kind words I received and the crying session I had was cleansing and good for me.Never underestimate the power of words and friends and family will get you through anything.Again,a very big thank you for being there for me.

I am now off to read so I can have something to post soon.I cannot wait for Diane Fanning's "Mommy's Little Girl" that is available from 3 November.Yippee!!!